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here is the reason I am lkng to have a nsa affair:
Met my spouse at 15, dated at 19, moved in,
OK: The first two years were great. once he started grad school he fell off my radar. Yrs of nights alone. no calls from him, dinner stale after promising to come home six hrs ago.no birthday presents, no cards, ....I loved him and cared, figured the lonliness and his complacency would end once he got his phD. got worse, married him anyway, "You'll regret it" said my wise mother, left alone nites on end with his new job, no call, no show.
He told me he loved me ,"i'm wrkg so hard for us"...had a baby, never home, baby sick, hospitalized, left me alone with new baby to go on work trip.. this scenario rptd up until 18th months ago. w/divorce threat, he went to ther. did 180 but I am left w/flng guarded and wanting other men in the worst way. I AM NOT LKNG FOR LOVE OR RELATIONSHIP. JUST SEX. I am an awesome, protective, responsible mom, a solid health prof....in need of feeling HUMAN!